First Birthday – My Wish

Happy Birthday to my sweet darling.

This year has gone faster than I could have ever imagined. I can almost certainly say that time doubles once you have a baby. It seems just like yesterday that I was rocking my newborn baby. Now here she is, giggling and laughing. Moving so quickly I can barely catch her. I love every little thing about her. Sometimes I can hardly stand it.

Now that I have a one year old I can confidently tell younger mothers to cherish every single moment, because even those never ending nights of crying that seem like they will never end, do. And maybe not too quickly for an over exhausted mother, but before you know it she is going to be wiggling out of your arms yearning to be let down to run free. Really, before you know it.

Now that I sit down and take a moment to reflect on the past year it reminds me to appreciate the time that I have now. To bathe in and embrace each moment. To put down my phone or book and observe her play. To absorb the little chatter noises that she makes. To memorize the soft curves of her hands that lay gently on my chest as she sleeps. These are the moments that go all too quickly. I can’t stand thinking of letting that get away from me. Even though I know I can’t stop it.

I can document it though. And that is what I wish to do. A memory is made with stories and pictures. Each memory I have as a child comes with it an image in my mind or picture from a photo album. I want my sweet pea to remember the love that surrounds her at this time in life. This is why I wish to take pictures and write stories. Then, when she gets old enough we can sit together, read the journal I have been keeping for her and look at pictures that hold more than words can describe. What fun it will be.

So, to my little monkey bear, this is what I wish for you…

Stay true to yourself.
Don’t let what others think of you determine what you think of yourself
Laugh all you want
Cry all you want
Know it’s okay to be beautiful on the outside
Strive to be beautiful on the inside
You don’t have to be perfect
Listen to others, even if you don’t agree.
Know what you believe and be able to defend it
Always keep learning, expand your brain
It’s never too late to try new things
Love in all things
Love God
Love your mom
Most of all, know that I love you, no matter what

Love, mommy

She’s loves music so much. Here she is being sung to for the second time on her actual birth day.

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A few pictures playing about here and there. Then pictures from her birthday party. What fun it was to plan a party for my sweetie.
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Back with vigor!

Why hello there! I’ve missed you. Have you missed me?

I have been a little busy for the past five months, distracted by habitual sleep and nausea. However, now that I am feeling better I happy to announce that my darling husband and I will be expecting our first child at the end of July. We are so thankful for the little bundle of joy that is growing inside me and pray each day for health and happiness for this little one.

I am now in week 21 of my pregnancy. Between weeks 9-15 were the hardest for me, I felt like I could never get enough sleep, even thinking of making food made me nauseous and when I was hungry nothing but pizza and carbs sounded good to me. I am very thankful that I didn’t get really really sick (I don’t know how women do it). It was awful but bearable most the time.

Through it all I continued to teach my body works (weight) classes three times a week and walked around the neighborhood when I could muster up the energy. I feel that if I had stopped working out altogether, I would have felt much worse.

The thing that I tried to keep in mind was “listen to my body and what and I need”. If this meant going to bed at 6pm for 2 months or eating whatever I could keep down, I did it. I was a little worried I wasn’t getting enough nutrients because I lost 8lbs in 2 months. I talked with my wonderful midwife about this and she said that as long as I could keep my prenatal vitamins down the baby would be getting enough nutrients at this time. She told me, as time passed I would be able to eat vegetables and fruit again without having to force it down, and she was right.

I am now back to my old schedule of having “life juice” first thing in the morning, then a fruit smoothie mid-morning, lunch (a sandwich, salad or dinner leftovers), snacking on fruit, yogurt, or nuts, and dinner (chicken or fish with a salad/veggie and sweet potatoes is my favorite right now). This sort of eating really makes me feel good.

Now that I have energy again, I will be posting regularly. I have tons of great workouts and recipes to share! Can’t wait to see what you think.

Much love,
Caitlin