Happy Birthday to my sweet darling.
This year has gone faster than I could have ever imagined. I can almost certainly say that time doubles once you have a baby. It seems just like yesterday that I was rocking my newborn baby. Now here she is, giggling and laughing. Moving so quickly I can barely catch her. I love every little thing about her. Sometimes I can hardly stand it.
Now that I have a one year old I can confidently tell younger mothers to cherish every single moment, because even those never ending nights of crying that seem like they will never end, do. And maybe not too quickly for an over exhausted mother, but before you know it she is going to be wiggling out of your arms yearning to be let down to run free. Really, before you know it.
Now that I sit down and take a moment to reflect on the past year it reminds me to appreciate the time that I have now. To bathe in and embrace each moment. To put down my phone or book and observe her play. To absorb the little chatter noises that she makes. To memorize the soft curves of her hands that lay gently on my chest as she sleeps. These are the moments that go all too quickly. I can’t stand thinking of letting that get away from me. Even though I know I can’t stop it.
I can document it though. And that is what I wish to do. A memory is made with stories and pictures. Each memory I have as a child comes with it an image in my mind or picture from a photo album. I want my sweet pea to remember the love that surrounds her at this time in life. This is why I wish to take pictures and write stories. Then, when she gets old enough we can sit together, read the journal I have been keeping for her and look at pictures that hold more than words can describe. What fun it will be.
So, to my little monkey bear, this is what I wish for you…
Stay true to yourself.
Don’t let what others think of you determine what you think of yourself
Laugh all you want
Cry all you want
Know it’s okay to be beautiful on the outside
Strive to be beautiful on the inside
You don’t have to be perfect
Listen to others, even if you don’t agree.
Know what you believe and be able to defend it
Always keep learning, expand your brain
It’s never too late to try new things
Love in all things
Love your mom
Most of all, know that I love you, no matter what
She’s loves music so much. Here she is being sung to for the second time on her actual birth day.